Because Sometimes Life Takes A Detour

Long time no speak eh? Don't worry i'll get the hang of this blogging crap one day...maybe. Anyhow my sudden inspiration to write another post stems from my chain of unfortunate events because to be perfectly honest this week has been crap! My trip to Wales to see my tribe was canceled due to a lovely infection in my toe, my "long term" partner and me broke up and just to top it off I got on the scales the other day and erm cried...Brilliant.

So as you can imagine I've not been in the best of moods as of late, in total honesty I've been in the worst mood, many pints of ice cream have been consumed and far to many hours have been spent in bed bawling my eyes out. But as the saying goes every cloud has a silver lining and this week has been so valuable in the sense of showing me what I still have left, in ways I feel blessed to have people in my life that are so compassionate and willing to take time to help me get my feet back on the ground. Within this I've received some fabulous advice and pick me ups which I want to share on here for me to refer to when I feel like my world is falling apart because lets be honest, I get into that mindset far to often!

"Don't worry about it too much, life does go on, even without our loved ones - Relationships come and go all the time at this point in our lives, it sucks but if you think about it, they weren't the one for you if things do go wrong and one day, you'll meet a person who makes you feel like you're living a lifelong dream."

"You're gonna pull through this even stronger and resilient than before. You're a kind, intelligent and beautiful person and you deserve to be happy. Whether that's with or without someone by your side, you're never alone because you have so many friends and a supportive family by your side."

"The only person you can rely on for your own happiness is you"

So there we have it future Alexi, life goes on, you've been through a lot of crap and whatever you're going through is just another thing to add to the list of things you've overcome in your life.

Now I'm off to go and write another post on the wonderful events that occurred before this week of dismay occored to cheer myself and this blog right up!

Love & TubTubs

Alexi 

"I had these memories all around me, so I wouldn't feel alone

Some may be from showing up, others are from growing up

Sometimes I was so messed up and didn't have a clue"

- Rose Tattoo

21/05/14 - Sam's 18th & Chemistry Coffee

Hey Guys!

Had a sudden bout of inspiration to pick up the iPad and start blogging again courtesy of my lovely Norwegian friend Kine (I seem to be picking up a regular stream of Norwegians now days, lovely bunch, maybe I can build up a fleet!). So the last month of my life has been mostly dedicated to revising my butt off for my final A-level exams however, (plot twist) I've decided to stay put in my home town for the extra year which means next year I'll have the joys of sitting these exams all over again just hopefully with less stress and reduced weight gain. I have many reasons to stay put for the extra year one of the main ones being a string of poor decisions in the previous past two years has meant the stress of moving to uni may cause permanent damage to my sanity, but I can't help but feel that topic should be a whole blog post in itself so I digress!

BBQ extraordinaries right here!

Because this seemed like a good idea at the time!

The birthday boy (pre-chunder)

The best people ever!

Aside from having my head stuck in a textbook and drinking unhealthy amounts of red bull I have actually had a few decent nights out the latest of which being the 18th birthday celebrations of one of my oldest friends Sam. We had a simple BBQ in his back garden followed by a night I don't overly remember down the pub but honestly it was a much needed night full of old friends I'd not had the chance to catch up with since starting my A-Levels. Highlights of the evening included Issac setting the BBQ on fire and Fluffy having the fabulous idea to put it out with a cider causing a mild explosion, Sam vomiting all over the pub carpet in true 18th style & spending £35 on shots that no body really liked haha. I do remember also rounding off the evening with a nice open mic session of "Fast Car" which is a beautiful song that made me very emotional (that said I am one of those drunks...Owp).

As you can imagine the next morning was hell and not made any more comfortable by having four hours of chemistry. As luck would have it though my chemistry teacher sensed my livers distress and got me coffee, best teacher award over here! So although short but sweet I'm going to depart from this post seeing as if my teacher's nice enough to fetch me coffee the least I can do is actually pass one of his exams so I'm off to drink more red bull and cry over thermodynamics. See you soon!

Love & TubTubs

Alexi

♫"And I, I had a feeling like I belong. And I, I had a feeling I can be someone" ♫

2013 Round Up!

Hey guys! So I've mentioned it a million times before but sometimes I like to use my blog as a diary to help me keep track of what I'm doing with my life. So today I'm going to share a roundup of my life in 2013 with you lovely lot. It's been a really big year to me and I've been through a lot of highs and lows, but I've come out the other side okay and I'm super excited to see what the new year has to offer! So without further ado lets get started, apologies in advance as I can tell this is going to be super long!

January
January was a blank slate for me and I really do think I made the most out of it, I started my weight loss journey very successfully and this is also when I decided to step out of my comfort zone and start talking to new people. This was the start of many wonderful friendships with amazing people from all over the world that I honestly feel blessed to have met, at the same time though a few long standing friendships fizzled out. I stand by my belief that this was no one's fault and sometimes people grow apart especially once you've left school and are starting to build your own identities and even though I'm no longer friends with these girls I wish them all the luck in the world with what they wish to do in life.

February

February was the month where my relationships with my new friends flourished and I really started to find my feet and come out of my shell. I attended social gatherings and really started to put myself out there I grew as a person and it also marks the first year I celebrated my birthday with more then three people. I've always been too scared to have parties because I worry that no one would show up but I'm super happy I did because it was the best birthday I've had to date!

Best birthday to date <3

March

March was a very male orientated month unfortunately filled with many bad decisions. It marked the end of my two year relationship which although hard at the time I came to terms with and am happy to report that we're still on good terms and there was no bloodshed. I also decided to meet up with someone I met on Facebook, he turned out to be both real and not a rapist which is always a good sign however it was a short lived friendship and I will completely take the blame for that one. I'm willing to admit that I hurt a fair few people in that month and it's definitely a time I'm not proud of, on a happier note now amends have been made and I've learnt a lot from these experiences, every cloud has a silver lining.

April & May

I'm afraid I have very little to report for April & May, I entered a new relationship which was a big mistake on my part. Emotionally I wasn't ready for it and needless to say it was short lived but we'll get into that a little further on. It was also this month that I broke up with a little thing called Physics, I made the decision to drop physics due to falling so far behind due to poor health and I'm happy I did because I could then put all the energy I had into my other studies and I feel really grateful to be in a teaching environment where the staff care about my well being and let me make that decision. My health really did affect me during this time period and stopped me doing very much of anything hence the lack of any sort of blogging substance...sorry!

June
June marked two very big things this year. The first thing was Download festival 2013, now I don't normally put festivals and gigs down as "big things" but this was different. Not only did I manage to overcome my medical issues to go in the first place but I met Ville Valo which is a complete dream come true for me and I'm still in awe that it happened. The second thing was the start of my exams, but after meeting Ville nothing was going to get me down and I went full speed ahead into my exams

Me & Ville. Please ignore my trying not to die face :')

July

July was a very up and down month for me. Right in the middle of my exams I was dumped which really damaged my moods and my grades. However, thanks to my wonderful friends and family I really turned the month around, finished my exams and went on to have a wonderful summer. I had plans almost every single day and I was making the most of spending time with my friends before they flew home for good. It was a summer of relaxing and creating memories that I'll honestly cherish for a lifetime.

August
August really was just a continuation of July, I had to say goodbye to some really good friends but I also made new ones, I went abroad for the first time in four years and just enjoyed life and all it has to offer. The end of August marked the dreaded results day, upon opening my envelope I didn't receive the grades I'd wanted but after crying in the toilets for a hour I spoke to my teachers got a plan of action together and came to terms with it pretty quickly if I'm honest. Looking back on it, my results weren't even too bad, I "passed and was able to progress into my second year so all wasn't lost!

Leaving party for my girls <3

September

September was a really hard month for me, as I said at the start the year was full of highs and lows and I think this month was the worst of the year. Going back to sixth form was hard because I was walking into the common room and my group of friends was now a fifth of the size and that took a while to adjust too. The hardest part of the month and possibly my year was the loss of a friend of six years, I won't go into to much detail as this is at the end of the day the Internet, but my best friend turned out to be someone I didn't know who was manipulative and decided to put poor life decisions before our friendship. I was betrayed and completely crushed and sadly this does still effect me though I have come to terms with it much better recently.

October

October was proof to me that things do get better, it marks the month I reconnected with my current boyfriend (remember the Facebook guy from March?) who not only makes me happy for the obvious boyfriend-ey reasons but has taught me a lot about myself, life in general...and pronunciation! I grew closer to my remaining friends, however also had to deal with my closest friend moving to the other side of the country which although hard I dealt with so much better than expected. This was the real game changing month for me, things headed up from here and I can only hope that this new outlook stays with me because it's making life wonderful!
 

November & December

November and December I've merged together for two reasons. One, I've been blogging so anything of interest that's happened during this period you will already know about and two, this post is stupidly long. In short things are looking up, I've gained a new perspective and I'm trying more things. I've learnt to be satisfied with the person I am and I feel that despite everything that happened this year I came out of it all in the best way possible.

Wow this is probably the longest post I've ever written, leave me a comment if you actually got to the bottom of this, seriously I'm interested! So there we have it, my 2013! I know it's a little vague in some places but I do have to keep in mind that this is the Internet, I really wanted to put this up not only for my benefit but also to show how much things can turn around in the space of a few months so if things were hard for you last year chin up and keep moving forward! Until next time...

Love & TubTubs

Happy New Year!

Hey guys! I hope all you fabulous sexy people had a wonderful 2013 and brought in the New Year in style, and by in style I mean either going to awesome parties or sitting at home eating pizza as either is acceptable in my book. I was going to do a nice outfit post of what I wore yesterday because I was in love with my outfit, nails and make-up however due to the amount of time it took me to get my fake eyelashes on my face I didn't have the time...and was still half hour late to my friends house. So I'm going to run a quick Google search in an attempt to find said dress so you all can admire it seeing as it's probably the best thing I brought in 2013, me and my damn tartan eh?

Dress by Wal-G

So 2013 was actually a huge year for me, probably the most game changing of my life if I'm honest and want to get all dramatic with you. So much so I think I'm going to write a seperate blog post on it, not going to say when that will be up though because I have a feeling that's going to involve a lot of editing to get right and not give out too much about other people. Hmm!

So are any of you guys making New Year's Resolutions? Last year I decided to start losing weight and I actually managed it and dropped two dress sizes & two stone hurrah! So this year I decided to make a few more to give myself a push in the right direction

• Get down to my final goal weight
• Get more motivated with my studies and put that extra bit of effort in
• Stress less and stop worrying about things I can't change
• Say yes to more things and embrace new opertunities
• Look after myself and try to get my health back on track

That last one I added on just as I'm typing this up because the reason this post isn't up on new years is due to the fact that I got taken into hospital again on New Years Day with suspected appendicitis, thankfully it wasn't that but we're still at a loss as to what it actually is so I'm hoping all will be figured out soon! I hope you all have a wonderful 2014 let me know your goals for the year bellow!

Love & TubTubs

Merry Christmas!

Hey guys, I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and are looking forward to the new year! I'm currently typing this from my wonderful new iPad mini courtesy of my lovely parents this holiday because once again I am sick (I swear my immune system has decided to go on holiday over Christmas). That said though I'm probably going to have to format this from my laptop anyway because the blogger app is appalling, sort it out Apple! (...please?)

Grumbling and sickness aside I had a really wonderful Christmas period, from the 22nd up until Christmas Eve I was in London with my boyfriend forcing my Christmas pixie ways upon him and just having our own little Christmas from our hotel room. For those of you who don't know I'm in a long distance relationship so being able to see someone so special this time of year really meant a lot to me (cue the eye rolls) and besides all the couplely crap he brought me Moomins which is always a huge plus!

The original plan was to visit winter wonderland but due to the horrific storm that hit the UK it was canceled, so not to put a damper on our spirits we headed into Covent Garden for a nose about before walking over to Picadilly just lapping up the Christmas spirit and having a cheeky pit stop in M&M world, which may I add A. Smells divine and B. Is bloody massive! As the night went on the storm got worse and worse so we headed back to our hotel and ordered in a pizza and played vanguard until two in the morning, because you know that's clearly the mature thing to do! The following day I also had my very first Wagamama's! This is a huge thing for me because I'm such a picky eater and I don't like trying new things but I will say it was utterly delicious, our waiter was a darling and I was full for the rest of the day which was a Christmas miracle in and of itself!

 

After a battle getting home on Christmas Eve thanks to many canceled trains I woke up Christmas morning to a lovely present opening session with my family which is always lovely with everyone in that happy sleepy state and Tub's shredding the discarded wrapping paper on the floor. In true Christmas spirit me and my little brother then proceeded to take millions of Christmas selfies, he is definitely taking after me with the camera whoring! My nan then came over and we had Christmas dinner, my dad brought a XL turkey for five people...yes it is now two days later and we're still living off it and will continue to do so for the rest of the year by the looks of things! After putting ourselves into food coma we settled down in the living room for bad TV and a game of Cluedo, who did it you may ask? We will never know, Tub's kept taking off with the pieces, so much so that professor plum no longer has a face. My dog is a tyrant!

So there's my Christmas in a nutshell, I really hope you all had a great Christmas too by the looks of all the blog posts I've seen it sure looks like it! If you were one of the unfortunate families that lost power due to the storm over Christmas I really hope you still made the most of it and are celebrating hard now the power has returned. So if any of you guys have done a Christmas post link me in the comments so I can give it a nose, if not let me know how it was or even better write one! Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night!

Love & TubTubs